Ok, it's been a few weeks since I have posted my thoughts and wasted feelings on here.
I am now back at my job, I was called in to work a week after I was put off, obviously I AM an asset to them no matter how much they deny it.
I have been having a shit time at work though. Shit only because I have RSI in both wrists.
I am not going on MSN.
If you want to talk to me, you know my fucking number, give me a text or even a call.
My wrists just throb constantly, then have a shooting pain from my wrist up my arm and back down again. (bad grammar but who cares)
Ill be surprised if anyone actually reads this blog
Tomorrow is Bob's birthday and im stumped for what to give him? Maybe a 6 pack of TEDs will do him. What to get a 25 year old.. Jeez.
I keep on thinking about the other night with Jim. I wonder if what he said is true. I keep running it through my mind. I guess I can hope. Jimmy is such a sweetheart. Our drunken heart to hearts. lol.
I'm over my jealousy. People can have their relationships, it doesn't bother me any more.
You can have all the heartache involved, the wasted words, the 'i love you's' that you'll never hear back. The unsatisfactory relationship. I'm glad I don't have one. It took me too long to get over my last. I dont handle rejection easily. I was clearly 100% in love with him, for it to take me so long. I wish him well. May their future be promising.
I just wish we could be as close as we were, because in a big way i feel ive lost him.
